It is a month, since I got braces. A month in which my teeth was hurting, the hurting became a nagging pain. The nagging pain became tiredness... Then there was the adaptation to the new settings, after the monthly check-up at Dr. Esra. And here I sit tonight and I AM VERY IMPRESSED! The two front teeth (the ones which made me the most self-conscious), are almost straight! If they were like this, I would not have had to go through this process.
In this month, I had to learn to brush my teeth, floss, eat, drink, and close my mouth and smile "mindfully". In this month, I knew whereto I was working and what I was planning for myself. I was willing to go through all this adaptation and pain to reach my goal, of straight teeth... I had some shocks, when there suddenly appear gaps between teeth - I did not want to trade skew teeth for Madonna teeth ;-)
In this month I got some for which, I prepared myself and some for which I was not prepared.
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In this month, I also had a life outside of my mouth.
I became extremely tired for no apparent reason at all. I was happy and hardworking, I was sad and hurt and unable to work. I had to learn to work beyond my tiredness to reach my work goals. I had to learn to live beyond the pain of an old love to reach my goal of finding answers. I found the unexpected answer, whilst I had no energy to deal with it.
I got some for which I was prepared and some for which I was not prepared. I did not know what I shall find and whether I shall like what I find. What I found were answers, I did not like, but which did bring an end to suffering. What I found was a self-affirming knowledge that I shall be at the right place at the right time. What I found was a self-affirming knowledge that I have excellent instincts, which I need tot learn to trust. What I found was a self-affirming awareness of my strength and wholeness.
And here I sit tonight and I AM VERY IMPRESSED! I am smiling and totally in love with myself. I have come very far and I am flowing strong…
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